Sunday, December 27, 2015

#repost: your problems are not mine

In the name of Allah

Alhamdulillah, last night we had sister’s circle again. K tak, usrah.haha,sama kot maksudnya (: anyway, here I just want to share some thing that I found very very interesting (though most of you guys already knew about this) but I still want to share (:

We have our own problems

Yeah, enough said right? I mean, all of us has our own problems. It just that, sometimes we tends to say things like;

 “Your problem is like very easy compared to mine!You should be thankful lady!”

 “Why is she whining about simple stuff? Come on,there are other more important stuffs to think of like the issues in Egypt and Palestine”

“Chill la bro, masalah kecik je kot. Kau nak gelabah apasal?”

Okay, I’ll be lying if I said I have never encounter those kind of thoughts. Well I think it is quite safe to say, most of us at least once have this kind of impression when people tell they have a problem.

The thing is most of us didn’t realized that each of us has own potentials, strengths and weaknesses. Hence Allah has given each of us things based on our capability. As stated in the Al Quran;

“Allah does not charge a soul except[ with that within ] its capacity………..”                           2:286

Hence, we should not simply judge other people’s feeelings towards a problem ‘cause we will never knew how she/he felt until we are in their position. Yes, we try to understand them so that we can give them comfort and some kind of assurance, that’s good. I mean, that is a very good intention. Though, to say that we completely understood their position is too much I think unless you have experienced it before.

On the other hand, what I want to stress here is that we should not compare our problems. I mean, I can have a problem with my studies which might not be a problem to my friends, and they might have a problem with their relationship which I don’t have any. For this situation, I cannot say my problem is worse than theirs ‘cause what I had in my plate is different than theirs.

One wise thing that you should do when you have people telling you ‘simple’ stuffs is to listen to them ‘cause it can be the other way round, what you think is a minority might be a major thing for them. Obviously when you had your own problem, you want people to listen to you as well right? Er no? Then, this doesn’t apply to you la. Hehe.

Face your own problems with your own weapons

Some people have their own ways in handling things. You cannot simply follow their ways ‘cause it might not suit you. For example, you want to get straight As in your exams and you saw your senior staying up all night and succeed in getting straight As. Then you think that staying up all night is the best way to get straight As and you start to work on that. Well, not everybody can work late night. I mean, your body might not be able to handle staying up late or even your brain. You might get tired the next morning and then screw up your daily activities. So how? Best way is to find your own solutions. Yes, of course you can try their solutions as well, but don’t depend too much on it.

Other than that, people have their own preferences. Some people like to be approached in a ‘soft’ way and some people prefer ‘direct-harsh’ way. So yeah, we have our own preferences. Knowing that, you should respect other people’s preferences as well. Technically, realising that we all have own favourites, we should also come to a sense that we have our own way as well.

I say, push yourself to the limit. Like the song by Corbin Bleu, Push it to the Limit. Hihihi. Like stated above, Allah will not give you something you can’t handle. So if you’re facing a problem, keep remembering that you have a weapon to handle the problem. Sometimes, you might not see it but you can actually handle it. Think positive, and keep calm. Maybe you need to push yourself a bit further than your usual achievement but eventually what happens to you,you would be able to handle and face them.

Too lazy to check since it is too long. Hopefully there are only minor errors. Hihiihi.
Goodnight, sleep well.

p/s: trust is a very important component in a successful relationship
without trust it may lead to obsessive jealousy
lol.bajet terror psl relationship pulak dah
hahahaha

p/s:p/s: congrats if you managed to read all these,you're so patient to finish them
even i can't read it again
mihihihihihihi

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This was written on the 22nd of October 2013. Re-reading this makes me thought of how positive and calm I used to be. I can't remember the background to this draft though. Eh no, I got it, I think I remember now. It was when a friend of mine didn't like being labelled as 'hotstuff'.

We used to tease her that since she easily can get along well with the guys and that she knew a lot of people, probably a better,decent word to call her would be people-person. However, thanks to our ignorance and insensitivity, we called her that and at one point, she snapped. She said she hated the term because it means something bad. Another friend was defending herself saying she didn't mean it that way but I kept quiet and hence came this post. Haha. But anyway, I do regret my behaviour to my friend. She was not supposed to be teased like that, I should have known better.

But don't worry, we're all still friends after that. Nonetheless, this is why I thought everyone is having their own struggle. Some might struggle to lose weight, some might struggled to improve their grades and some might struggle to stay away from being accused of falling in love. #eh?

Okay, I think my comment for this post is getting a little bit too lengthy, so until then guise. ADIOS!

Monday, December 21, 2015

'Depressing' books



So, this is how it goes. I’ve been doing pretty much nothing during my summer holiday so I thought, ‘Why not I spend some time reading up a few books? For sure it will not be worthless.’

So, I read and read, most of the time I read the books halfway and I continue with new ones, so that’s why if you go to my reading lists- currently reading, there’s like 4 or 5 books under that label. Why? Because I kind of like jumping to another books at one time. Well, not because they are boring but because I need to make sure I read different kind of books, get what I mean right? *good*

Anyway, as I mentioned up there, I want to talk a little bit about ‘depressing books’ since I’ve read two books that are quite gloomy to me. Those two books are Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami and All The Bright Places by Jeniffer Niven. Why I said these two books were depressing? Because there were characters in the book that committed suicide.

All the bright places
I read this book because a friend of mine recommended it to me. She said I am going to like this book. Well, that’s kind of true though, since I managed to finish the book in a week, or maybe less. But anyhow, when I finished reading the book, I was a little bit sad with the ending. It was pretty sad and I somehow can imagine how helpless Violet is when she found out about Finch (but his first name is Theodore, I don’t know why they didn’t call him that).

The thing is, this guy Finch, he has great level of patience and a nice guy. I mean, he does have anger problem sometimes but he sure is in love with Violet and willing to do anything for her. Violet, on the other hand is one perfect girl who’s on the verge of breaking down but could not seek any help because people expected her to be fine and then come Finch to her rescue.

“‘Growth itself contains the germ of happiness.’ Pearl S. Buck. Maybe a germ is enough. Maybe it’s all you need”[1]


Well, go and get your hands on this book because it was a story worth reading. Don’t expect me to tell you the short version of the story here. *go read by yourself! ;p*

Norwegian Wood
This book is more depressing than the previous one. Let see, there 4 main characters that committed suicide in this book. That is depressing isn’t it? Anyway, the theme for this book is love and mental illness I guess. Though, I have to be honest, there are some details about boy-girl and girl-girl relationship that are too much for me that I have to skip the pages because I don’t want to know about it. But since I’ve started reading already, so I finished the book anyway.

“Memory is a funny thing. When I was in the scene I hardly paid it any attention. I never stopped to think of it as something that would make a lasting impression, certainly never imagined that 18 years later I would recall it in such detail.”[2]

It was so depressing but still, I didn’t regret reading them. Somehow these books gave me a realistic example of those people who are depressed and having mental illness. Surely, most of the time when somebody mentioned, you’ll thought of someone who can’t take care of themselves, don’t bathe and all those common stereotyping. But after reading these two books, I realised better that there are people who lived life normally like us but are having a very hard time coping with life itself.

What I am trying to say is; depression surely is a dangerous illness. Somebody might be too sad and grief after a loss or after anything fatal that happened to her/him. Somebody might get too upset when he’s heartbroken. Somebody might get too emotional and hurt when her sister died all of the sudden. So many, yes so many things can be a factor of having a mental illness.

Why I am writing about this?


Because I wanted you people, who read up my blog to make sure to look on those people around you. Talk to them if something happened. Eh no, before something even happened, get used to them talking. Get to know what’s bothering them and what’s on their mind. Be there for them, don’t just say it and didn’t do it. REALLY BE THERE for them. Don’t assume that they are doing fine because they usually will. Be concern and be a good company.

Nevertheless, what’s more important is that YOU YOURSELF. Whenever you are feeling a little bit down, don’t be shy to ask for help. Don’t be shy to cry to you mum or dad or a good friend. Maybe you need some time and space, but never too much. You have to let it out eventually. Seek peace from God, pray to Him even though you’ve never prayed before. Speak to Him and depends totally on him for peaceful mind and heart.

Careful not to ever let yourself dwell over your sadness and calamity. You might not know it that you are already on the depression region. Anyhow, just remember to be nice to everybody because you never know what’s on their plate right? Even if you do, you won’t understand.

“You know what I like about you? You’re interesting. You’re different. And I can talk to you. Don’t let that go to your head.”[3]

That’s all for the depressing thoughts. Stepping away from it.
Anyway, I’m planning to upload a new video in the next post, wait for it?

BYE!

[1] All the bright places, Jeniffer Niven
[2] Norwegian Wood, Haruki Murakami
[3] All the bright places, Jeniffer Niven

Monday, December 14, 2015

#repost: Bersyukur bukan sekadar di bibir

In the name of Allah the Most Merciful and The Most Beneficial

Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah

Baru sahaja dapat tahu keputusan Advanced Subsidiary (AS) Level hari selasa lepas.

Dugaan kali ini terasa pahitnya sebab tak pernah rasa; ya saya akui tak pernah rasa macam ini sebab selama ini selalu dapat apa yang diimpikan.

Target untuk peperiksaan AS adalah untuk dapatkan 5A, ya saya ambil 5A untuk AS level. Ramai juga kawan-kawan tegur supaya saya kurangkan kepada 4, tapi saya tetap dengan keputusan saya sebab saya seronok dengan subjek kelima saya. Sampai saat ini, syukur tak pernah terdetik lagi penyesalan sebab tak kurangkan bilangan mata pelajaran. InsyaAllah ilmu yang saya perolehi akan dimanfaatkan sebaiknya.

Cukupkah sekadar ucapan 'Alhamdulillah'?

Maksud kalimah ini simple je

Alhamdulillah = Segala Puji bagi Allah
tapi untuk menyebutnya dengan penuh rasa rendah diri pasti terasa susahnya saat dirimu diberi sesuatu yang kau tak mahu.

Bersyukur itu bukan sekadar dengan menyebut 'Alhamdulillah' mahupun 'Saya bersyukur'. Bersyukur itu lebih daripada itu, yang saya sendiri kurang pasti bagaimana mahu menggambarkannya. Syukur itu perlu datang bersama mulut, hati juga perbuatan. Memang, kita kecewa kita sedih bila tidak dapat sesuatu yang kita mahukan; tapi itu bukan sebab untuk kita menangis keterlaluan. Jujur saya katakan, saya tiada masalah dengan orang yang menangis saat dia gagal asalkan dia tidak hanyut dengan kesedihan itu. Menangis itu satu perkara biasa terutama kaum wanita. Jadi, usah sedih mahupun kecewa sekiranya anda menangis di saat anda menerima satu kegagalan. Mungkin satu tindak balas refleks membuatkan air mata mengalir kesedihan.

Apa-apa pun yang mahu saya tekankan di sini, saat kita menerima sesuatu kegagalan, mulut wajar berkata 'Alhamdulillah' namun hati turut perlu berkata syukur.

Ingat, kita mungkin boleh gagal lebih jauh, siapa tahu?

Lagipun, tak semua yang kita rancang itu yang terbaik, sesungguhnya Allah adalah perancang terbaik.

"And the disbelievers planned, but Allah planned. And Allah is the best of planners" Al Imran : 54

Maka, siapa kita untuk berkata "Ah apa ini, aku mahu keputusan yang lain!" sesungguhnya kita ini mempunyai ilmu yang sangat sedikit. clueless tentang masa depan dan yang mana baik dan buruk untuk kita.

Adakah bersyukur bermakna tidak berbuat apa-apa?

Memang, kita patut bersyukur sebab firman Allah dalam surah Ibrahim : ayat 7

And [remember] when your Lord proclaimed, 'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny,indeed, My punishment is severe'

Ingatlah, syukur itu perlu.
Maka bolehlah bersenang lenang terima je seadanya? Macam tu?

Well, up to you. Kalau rasa hidup mahukan improvement; mahukan kejayaan, maka teruskan berusaha. Terima kegagalan ini sebagai satu titik dalam hidup kita untuk mencipta kejayaan yang lebih besar. Jangan jadikan gagal ini satu alasan. Saya rasa tak perlu lah bagi contoh Thomas Edison ke apa, sebab mesti ramai dah tahu. Cuma, cuba fikir, Allah bagi kita kegagalan ini untuk apa? Pasti bukan untuk buat kita terus menerus gagal. InsyaAllah, tabahkan hati, kuatkan semangat dan terus lihat ke hadapan.

Have faith in Allah.

Dia sayang kita, kalau rasa macam tak cukup kasih sayang, mungkin tiba masanya untuk kita sendiri pergi cari kasih sayang dari Dia?

Make the best in whatever you do; If ever you fail, keep on doing - not the same way, the better way. If you ever succeed, keep on doing - not same success;other success.

Wallahu'alam

p/s: Mood menulis kali ini sangat formal,bila baca balik rasa takutt, gigit bibir. hihi.
Mungkin memujuk hati boleh memujuk hati orang lain juga?
Lalalala, lagu Save Your Heart - Mayday Parade masih lagi best. 
;p

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This was written on 15th August 2013, the day I've gotten my AS result. I can't remember how much I got, prolly 2A3B, for sure I didn't get straight As. Well, that was my first time feeling like a total failure, when I'm starting to regret taking A-Levels *honestly I can't believed that I managed to post this thing, so much positivity haha*. And I remembered how I started to have doubts; I got an A for Biology but a B for Physics, when my plan was to take up engineering but here I am, doing Electrical Engineering- now entering my third year. 

Amazing how Allah planned things for me ey? (:

Sunday, December 13, 2015

#repost : Kerugian yang jelas



Rugi rugi
Saat kau punya banyak waktu
Kau habiskan dengan omongan kosong

Rugi rugi
Saat kau miliki ilmu dari serata dunia
Kau habiskan dengan sikap bangga sendiri

Rugi rugi
Saat kau punya sahabat yang baik
Kau sibuk mencari yang lain

Rugi rugi
Saat cinta Ilahi terbentang di depan mata
Kau berlari mengejar cinta manusia

Rugi rugi
Saat seseorang melebihi kau
Kau mengutuk mengata

Rugi rugi
Saat kau berjaya
Kau mula angkuh malah lebih teruk kau mula tamak

Rugi rugi
Saat ini
Kau masih lagi di sini
Membaca ekspresi seorang gadis
Cuba tanyakan kepada diri sendiri
Adakah sudah kau mengerjakan solat?
Jika sudah, Alhamdulillah
Jika belum, maka segerakanlah

p/s: sorry.i could have handled you better

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This was written on 11th April 2013; not yet arrived in Sydney.

Reposting old blog posts.

Hi there, so for the next few days*maybe weeks*, I am going to repost my previous blog post that has been hidden (read: saved as draft) which I found somewhat interesting or funny. Note that my current blog is my third blog, on blogspot. and I think I had one on wordpress which I already deleted.

Anyway, I'll make sure to pop up some new fresh ideas as well. *hopefully I'll get some fresh inspiration as well.*

But anyway, for more post like this one, just click on the label: #repost I'm sure a lot will came up.

Till then, bye!

Thursday, December 10, 2015

A walk to Glebe Library


It was Thursday afternoon when she went to the university to meet someone just to find out that somebody is not there. It’s fine, she’ll come again tomorrow. She then proceeded to the computer lab to send an email to the office, telling them she wanted to meet them and planning to set an appointment. She surfed the net, from looking for casual works till online shopping when she suddenly get excited and opened up a new tab. 

She typed ‘Sydney Council Library’ and a list of websites came out. She clicked on the first link and started looking for something, clicking here and there and then she found it. ‘Membership for council library’. Well, she got two options, applying online or visiting any of the libraries. She contemplated for some time then she closed all the browser and log off and walked out from the lab.

She walked towards Broadway along the City Road, well she wanted to buy some groceries but then she didn’t stop at Broadway yet she keep on walking towards Glebe. She recalled seeing the Glebe Library somewhere near the Glebe Market that she went last Saturday so she decided to walk there.

Only to found out that the library was quite far away especially when the road was going uphill. As the sun is really sunny, she was panting a little bit. ‘Need to exercise after this’, she whispered to herself. She could have just taken a bus there but she needed the walk. She wanted to see things and stop worrying too much. So she plugged in her earphones, playlists on. She basically didn’t pay attention to what song is playing but she just needed the background music.

She walked and walked, glancing at the shops along Glebe Point Road while remarking a few shops that she’s going to come again later. There are a few bookshops that catch her eyes but she refrained herself from entering because she needed to go to the library quickly before it closes, as well as she afraid she might get a little too excited and buy a new book. So she keep on walking and looking for the library and then she stopped because she felt she have walked far enough that the library should be around there and suddenly there’s a voice in her head that told her to go back home. She was fighting this little battle of keep going or giving up for a few seconds, and she continued. She walked up straight for less than 5 minutes and the library was on her left. Luckily she didn’t give up. Or else it’ll be a waste of time and energy walking so far just to give up when the ending is just a little bit more.


She went inside and look around. She went to DVDs and CDs section since she already had a lot of books at home needed to be read, so she really don’t want to pile up some more. After having a few CDs to borrow on mind, she went to the counter to sign up for membership. Then, the lovely lady brought her to a computer and ask her to sign up online. She smiled to herself thinking of how she could have done it earlier in the lab. But she filled up the form quickly and settled with the registration. She went to pick up the CDs she wanted to borrow and get out from that place. She’ll definitely come back, well she borrowed the CDs, obviously she have to return them back.

Anyway, after too much walking and her feet starting to ache, she decided for a bus ride home. She already took off her earphones when entering the library and didn’t plan on plugging them on again. She watched people around her and observed the beauty of each individuals. She saw the tall tree that she saw on her way to the library, it was so tall yet so close to the house. So it needed some extra support to make sure it does not fall on the house, or so she guessed.

Nonetheless, she was glad she decided to walk to the library, happy that she got the new membership now that she can go to any council library and borrow some stuffs. She smiled and happily walk home after finishing her groceries shopping. Glad she didn’t give up, surely it does a big impact on herself as she really needed a lot of good support these days. She’s totally on the verge of giving up but she has to keep going. As her friend was saying,


‘Don’t let the rough journey obscures your sight from your true destination.’


She keep on smiling and thanked for a good day.

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Book Reflection: To kill a mockingbird, Harper Lee


Hi there! Just as I mentioned few days *or maybe weeks* ago in my twitter, I wanted to do some book reviews or book reflections or whatever you want to call it. Somehow book reflections sounds more interesting because I don’t really know a proper book review format. HAHA.

So, the lucky book for my reflection today is To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee.

The reason why I bought this book is because it was suggested by google when I ran a searched on the list of books you have to read before you die. And somehow when I looked for it at the bookstore, the synopsis was quite simple and interesting to me *and the price was quite reasonable hihi*

“Life’s too short for unnecessary stress, so chill. Everything you do, make sure there’s fun in it.”

That’s the quote I wrote in the first blank page of the book. Where I got it or how I came across that? No idea. If it pops out when I write, I’ll make sure to tell you. So, let’s start now.

A wise gentleman

In this book, there’s a father, a very wise father that has been told from the perspective of a kid that is very smart and brave. I gotta be honest, somehow I was amazed with the wisdom shown by Atticus Finch while handling matters with his kids; Jem and Scout. Very young and close brother and sister. I admired their creativity on how they wanted to force Boo Radley out by doing so many things.

But the gentleman I was supposed to describe is Atticus Finch. I can’t really remember which occasions leads me to call him a wise man but from reading the book, I can sense that. He is a lawyer that fight for the minority. The way he explained to his kids about laws and how to be nice to other people. Oh yes, the incident when Jem Finch was punished by Mrs Dubose for ruining the flowers in her front yard. Atticus did not defend his child yet he told Jem to go apologize and do whatever the punishment Mrs Dubose asked him to. Well, the punishment was Jem need to go read to Mrs Dubose for a whole month every evening. Prolly because the punishment is a win-win situation since Mrs Dubose can actually get distracted with their company and would not think too much about her addiction; morphine. So, indeed, Atticus made a good choice by letting the kids to go read to Mrs Dubose as it helps both parties.

Children’s thinking

Reading this book from the point of view of a kid surely is something so pure. I mean, a na├»ve and clean way of thinking without any hatred or prejudice to analyse certain things. Reading it from Scout’s perspective is quite fascinating as sometimes it gave me a back thought of how I would have perceive the same situation if I was a kid. I like those parts when Jem and Scout talked to each other about matters; deep stuffs if you want to call it.

There’s this one part when they both were talking about how they thought folks are just folks but it is not.

‘That’s what I thought, too,’ he said at last, ‘when I was your age. If there’s just one kind of folks, why can’t they get along with each other? If they’re all alike, why do they go out of their way to despise each other? Scout, I think I’m beginning to understand why Boo Radley’s stayed shut up in the house all this time………………..it’s because he wants to stay inside.[1]

This part made me think of how people in this world truly are. There are so many prejudice and jealousy in this world that innocent people got to be blamed.

Anyway, I really recommend this book for everyone. It is a simple book but it has value in it. It has some humour in it and everything is quite relatable in normal life. Siblings’ fights, laws, courtrooms, thug life and so many things. So really, go get a copy of this book and start reading. I am sure you will not regret this book.

As for me, I am still learning to make it a habit to read books so I am starting with these kind of books first before I carry on with ‘heavier’ book. It has good values that can actually make you think a little bit more about it and not solely considering it as a fiction novel.

Anyway, I hope you like how my blog look now! At least I do. Haha. Till then, bye!

p/s: remember, whatever happens,
seeks for the good reasons


[1] To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee, page 247