Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Something on Wednesday afternoon

Remember my previous post, An evening advice ? 

I want to add to it. I mentioned about how we need to treat others at least they way we wanted others to treat us. However, I forgot to remind that doing that, you should never instill any hope or expectations in you because you'll get disappointed at one point. Were you to treat others nicely, you should never expect the same kindness from them. 

I've been thinking, no, more like comforting myself that other people don't think like me, they don't have the same common sense as I do, maybe what common to them isn't common to me. For example, it is neutral for me to replace the plastic bag in the trash after I take out the trash to throw them but it might not be as neutral for some people, or it is relevant to me to fill up the jug with water if there aren't any boiled water left but not to others. These are just some examples, there are so many more that happened in our daily life actually.

Having said that all these situations are normal and relevant to me, it might not be as relevant to some people and I cannot blame them. We are not from the same background, all of us are different, our views on certain things, how we are educated, how we are not, how shallow or open minded we are, all these matters and even some more. We have to painstakingly remind ourselves that other people are not us. We will never be able to make sense their actions. But we have to try to, sometimes.

You'll have to learn to forgive others when they make mistakes, when they hurt you in the most unimaginable way to them, the way when they didn't mean to at the first place. 

I remembered, a friend told me that I should not be too hard on myself. Then, the exact friend told me not to cry when I had some issues and can't pull myself together. I was confused, tbh, how could I be not too hard on myself and at the same time, avoid crying when crying helps me a little bit? I am not complaining, I am just sharing personal experience. I knew well enough that my friend was trying to give the best support and advice to me. That friend was giving me different advice on different situations, which was the conclusion I can get to when my mind was back at ease, Alhamdulillah. 

The reason why I am sharing this piece of story is that I realized that I should never expect a perfect response from anyone. I am not blaming my friend of anything at all, my friend is not at fault. I just thought that my friend can't understand what I feel because I am myself, my friend is my friend. We'll never be the same because we are different person. So when the response to the problems is not the same, that's just the reality and I have to eat that up. So mental note that I made? Not to idealize a response when I am telling something to somebody.

Back to the main point, we should not expect anything, we should always try not to expect from anyone. There'll always be frustrations, failures, difficulties but that what makes our life more colourful. But if you want to have a simpler and happier life, take my advice,  reduce expectations and try as best to forgive others, it'll be a good benefit for both you and them, for all of us, if God wills.

this is just my #notetoself actually. If you can benefit from it, then All praise to Allah, if not, I am sorry. And if you would to give me some advice, I am at open hearts to receive them, InshaAllah :)

Have a good day,
and take care.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

A short 20 minutes walk from Central Station to Chippendale

I got off the train feeling tired and exhausted and wanted to just catch a bus to reach home but I walk. I walk thinking that I needed some air to clear off my mind after the three days with the kids. Well, I just miss walking around actually hahaha nothing much on my mind, so yeah.

Anyway, when I walked just now, I saw a mother and she was holding her children. A son and a daughter, she held their hands so that they walk side by side with her. I was walking behind her and I thought how lovely it was and I should have brought the kids I was taking care of for a walk but 6 is just too many at one time haha. However, to my surprise, the mother had cigarette on her lips. I was like WHATTTTTTTTTT???!! What is wrong with you? Smoking is known to be harmful and why are you harming your own kids?! Had some wires in your brain gone wrong or what?

I almost went to ask the mother why on earth is she smoking in front of her own kids? Is she stupid or something? But well of course I did not do it, I was just too exhausted though I blamed the days spent with the kids causing me to be this defensive haha but now writing this down, I think I should have asked her, hm

I can't recall the second thing that happened during my short walk, ugh, I should have typed it while it happened. Silly me, I forgot things so easily lately. Oh and my ankle has not fully recovered yet, it has been 2 weeks since the day I slipped on the stairs. Anyway, let's just pray that this Sabrina gonna take a better care of herself since her life is a trust given by God to her.

Probably I should get some rest and stop thinking.

So till then, goodnight. Oh it is raining outside as I am posting this, such a remedy :)

Sunday, March 20, 2016


It is still raining outside and I have to fight the desire to go walk in the rain since I've got class at 9 am tomorrow
Forget that though, wasn't important

I like the rain, it gives me a sense of serenity, I, personally like looking at the sky when the rain is pouring down. Sometimes I purposely left my umbrella at home to get a chance to get wet in the rain (but usually I have to quickly go back home and dry my books haha)

I thought of posting something about chilling in and slowly slow your thinking process but sorry, the words didn't came out right. I'm sorry, I guess my thinking is just too slow? haha

Anyway, I really hope that my 'partner' enjoys rain as well, then we can go out especially during rainy days hihi imagine go for a hike, a walk by the beach, or just stroll in the garden haha. astagfirullah, *apa benda aku berangan ni haha, tak patut* but I should get going now, so till then,


Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Of dreams

Last Thursday, I woke up at 6 am, after having a dream that I already missed my Fajr prayer. And I still remember how scary I was at the moment when I realised I missed the prayer. Which when I woke up, I slowly thanked Allah for waking me up for Fajr.

Last Friday, I was having a nightmare, I was having a quarrel with somebody whom I can't really remember, then suddenly my best friend showed up in my dream and she said something about me neglecting her, and forgetting my duties as her friend. And to my surprised, I woke up since my phone vibrated and when I managed to answer the call, it stopped. When I looked who called, it was my best friend, the exact girl in my dream. So I thought, I need to call her back though it was 2 a.m. at the moment. Haha

Last night, I had a dream, I was married to one of my friend and it was so weird because we looked forward to the wedding but after the wedding we were so awkward in front of our friends. I woke up having this dream and go back to sleep, telling my mind to continue the dream and see what happens haha, pelik duh mimpi kahwin dgn kawan sendiri haha kalau kawan aku tahu ni mesti kelakar haha

Reasons why I am sharing this to you? I am not really sure but I just have to let it out somewhere somehow, not many people read this blog anymore anyway, so here I am haha.

Someone told me that whatever you dreamt is actually what's on your mind. I refused to believe this because I always think about food, how come I never dream about food for once? Haha


Saturday, March 5, 2016

Jangan jangan jangan

Hi there, scrolling my drafts on my OneNote and found this bit that has no title. It was somehow a needed reminder, haha. Have a read and gimme your thoughts :)

Jangan dengar lagu sedih, nanti sedih. 

Jangan cerita pasal cerita sedih, nanti sedih. 

Jangan fikir pasal benda sedih, nanti sedih. 

Kalau homesick; 
Jangan pergi tengok video family kau, nanti bertambah homesick 
Jangan tengok gambar lama, nanti nangis 
Jangan bagitahu orang kau homesick, nanti lagi homesick 

Jangan cakap banyak sangat, nanti sakit tekak 
Jangan cakap banyak sangat, nanti menyesal 
Jangan cakap banyak sangat, nanti pelik kalau kau tetiba diam 

Jangan fikir pasal benda yang dah jadi banyak sangat, nanti sakit kepala 
Jangan fikir pasal benda yang belum jadi banyak sangat, nanti letih 
Jangan fikir pasal hal orang lain, nanti rasa pelik 
Jangan fikir pasal benda yang tak perlu, nanti penat 

Jangan cerita apa-apa langsung, kalau tak nak orang tahu semua rahsia kau

Jangan memandai dan bising, kalau kau dapat tahu sesuatu yang kau tak patut tahu
Jangan buat spekulasi ataupun kesimpulan sendiri tentang hal orang lain 

p/s: maybe the idea is too ideal that i feel obliged to forget about it and to stay away from it.