Favourite surah :)

A couple of days ago, I was having a terrible time, emotionally drained I think. So, I decided to go online, clicked on Youtube and I type 'zikr'. I played the first playlist that popped up and tried to study. I tell you, maybe only half of myself was really studying while the other half of myself was trying to tell myself that it was alright, everything is going to be alright and what not. Oh yes, that was the night when I wrote the previous post. 

Why am I feeling sad? That, I don’t have a definite answer. 

But that is not the purpose of this post. 

It just that, when I was forcing myself to study and trying to be strong, I wasn't really listening to the playlist until somebody was crying in my ears. Who cried? It was Mishary Rashid al Afasy, he was reciting Surah Ar-Rahman. Instantly, I stopped doing whatever I was doing at the moment and I decided to restart his recitation which is the best decision that night. Since it was on Youtube, there's an English translation of the verses and a beautiful video accompanying the recitation. Silently, I followed his recitation and without realizing it, I was crying as well. So many things crossed my mind that full 13 minutes, so full of emotions and I was having mixed feelings but I felt a lot calmer and peaceful after listening to the recitation. 

So which of the favors of your Lord would you deny? 

I remembered that Mum was the one to introduce me to the amazing effect of this surah and this has got to be my favorite surah, of all time. I'm so glad :')

So, what's yours?

sedih

Sebagai seorang Sabrina, aku bawa satu nama yang besar maknanya. Dan orang sekitar aku sering ingatkan aku, "Sabar itu indah, Sabrina. Maka bersabarlah dengan sabar yang indah."

Menjadi seorang Ameerah pula, aku selalu diharapkan, untuk mengetuai sesuatu urusan, untuk tahu apa yang patut dan apa yang tidak. Mama selalu ulang-ulang, "Ameerah itu ketua, ketua untuk orang perempuan." 

tapi aku manusia lemah, aku punya waktu yang aku hanya mahu menangis dan menjadi lemah. contohnya seperti malam ini. 

aku kurang pasti apa penyebabnya tapi air mata murah malam ni. mungkin hati jauh dari Tuhan agaknya. mungkin aku rindu belaian mama mungkin ataupun aku cuma menjadi aku.

Helplessness or hopeful

Sometimes when a friend tells you he/she is not in a good condition, you have absolutely no idea what to do. You silently prayed that God would make things easier for them while you slowly and quietly search for a solution, or maybe a 'painkiller' that is going to buy him/her some time so that he/she can stay strong and be able to pull through, eventually. 

Those times when you have no power to help them, you realize that this world is beyond your control. You have to see people you loved getting hurt and being tested and they are beyond your reach. That is when you have to strongly stay beside them and gives support and motivation and held their hands and never let go. It is going to hurt you as well to watch them hurting because you care, but it is okay. That is when you are doing exactly what you are supposed to. You are supposed to share the pain, the burden with them so that they can endure the pain and burden and try to make it through. You have to give them hope; Hope that things will get better if God wills.

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It's the holy month now guys, make a lot of Duaa' for your family and friends, as well as for Muslims in Palestine, Syria and all over the world. 

I remember reading a note at the door of my school's musolla, one of the recommended duaa' during Ramadhan is to seek for forgiveness. The Duaa' goes like this;

Source: Google

Selamat beramal kawan kawan :)

Selamat maju jaya untuk peperiksaan juga.