Reflection

In the name of Allah

since that day, I promised myself not to anymore.
and as day passed by,
sometimes the thoughts of doing it again comes by
and as usual
I'll let it pass
by lying to myself
that I won't fall for this trap
that I am not going to follow the trend

and as I go along
friends keep telling me
"you're heartless"
"you're insensitive"
"you're strong"
and somehow, I chewed all of them
and I have to admit,
I am becoming like they said
and I hate it more than ever

because
when you're heartless
insensitive
strong
.............
maybe your heart won't feel anything when you sin
maybe you'll be ignorant when you see other muslims are being oppressed
maybe you'll be as brave as ever when do wrong things
maybe you'll stick with your thoughts though it's wrong
maybe it takes lotsa lotsa force from wise people to tickle your 'strong' heart

those maybe thoughts are especially mind-disturbing
hopefully,
it won't happen to me
and
you.

p/s:I'm glad to see your writings

gave me hope

I won't hesitate, this cannot wait

In the name of Allah

to change for better is never a crime

and usually a crime is easy to do for someone with evil heart

and it is hard for people with good heart

hence

if you say that changing for better is hard,

it is like doing telling you not to do any crime

while you're having a bad heart

honestly

i don't think you have bad heart

nor evil heart

it just that something has contaminated your pure good heart

so maybe to take it off from your heart is gonna takes some effort from you

just like removing stains from your shirts

some stains are easier to be removed, 

only require normal detergent

some is really tough to be removed

like the oil, or the paint

maybe require clorox 

or even multiple washing

just like our heart

sometimes

no, most of our time

our heart is stained with our sins

day by day

time passing by

unless we reflect and start washing them off

we will, not realized that our heart has become too deep

too black

too dirty

then it will become harder to be clean again

*HARDER* not impossible

hence, no worries

it is never too late to change for better

yes

you have your own struggle

i have mine

don't say that religious pious people are having easy life

because they have pure heart

don't say that

'cause you never know what they're battling with

be thankful

be strong

have faith

have courage

stay determined

stay positive

may Allah bless you

may Allah bless you

wallahu'alam

p/s: listening to Raef's songs

cool, he changed the lyrics,

made you remember Allah while listening to him

starting

In the name of Allah

di bumi ini aku mencari
meskipun sudah di tanah yang lain
pencarian masih diteruskan

bukan bukan
tidak sama sekali
bukan mencari yang itu
tapi mencari yang satu

acap sebenarnya kalah dengan ego
tewas dengan nafsu
lemah dengan godaan
lalai dengan alasan

tapi sampai bila?
bila noktahnya
mana hujungnya
bagaimana akhirnya

setiap sesuatu ada permulaan
kecil besar tidak penting
biar bermula
ada mulanya

maka?

marilah sahabat sayang,
mari kita mula
sekarang
bukan nanti

mula sekarang
MULA!

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At times, when stranger becomes too kind to you, you will start questioning what happen to family and friends.
Just to realize, all of them started as strangers as well.

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Aku undur diri daripada permainan ni. Dah penat. Aku minta maaf.
Ini hujungnya, insyaAllah.

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