It all drips away.

Hi there. 

Happy Saturday. I just finished watching The Book of Love; a very interesting movie. Tho, I have to warn you that it is a story about losing someone you love. If you don't feel like feeling sad and emotional, then don't go watch it. Despite that, me being someone who likes to watch 'deep' movie, this one gonna be in my recommended watch list. 

So, the other day, I was thinking about how we often say that we have to appreciate things while we have it but what about things we don't have? Maybe we should not be using the word 'appreciate' but what? There's this thing in ourselves that is called 'needs', 'desire', 'greed' which often requires moderation. And somehow people always tell themselves to be enough with what they HAVE, to be thankful with what they OWN but not many reminded to be alright of NOT HAVING, to be content with WHAT IS NOT THERE. 

Just wondering. 

Okay, let me use an example. If you have to commute, you wanted a car. Despite having all the public transports available, you still want the car. One of your argument was that it'll be easier to go here and there. But let me tell you something, you should be grateful of NOT HAVING a car. Why? You'll never get stuck in traffic jammed. You don’t' have to spend money from time to time to service the car and you get to have people drive you around haha * this one only legit sometimes hahaha* but don’t get me wrong, I am not against buying a car. Just using this as an example because was thinking about this when I was stuck in traffic jammed last night. 

Because sometimes, I think, it is not enough to just be grateful for what WE HAVE. Sometimes we need to remind ourselves of what WE DON’T HAVE and be glad about it. Mum always tells me that she's glad she has not born rich or else she would be needing to answer to God about all her wealth. Sometimes we don't know what would happen if we have more, it could either be good or worse but as far as it is, the present is always good. 

Though it is good to mention, when you got something, usually there's gonna something you'll lose. Oh yeah, I am using 'usually' it does not apply all the time. For example, if you got something deliciously tasty to eat, you'll end up gaining more fat and weight, not losing them haha. But yeah, you have to realise there's a price for everything. There's always something to lose in this life and that is alright. Sometimes, we have to give up things as well, might be it was not good for us. 

So guys and girls, try seeing things from different perspectives. You have to be thankful for what you have and also of what you don’t have or yet to have. Things happened for reasons, which when we managed to figure out what the reasons are, know that it was a blessing from God who gave light to us. May all of us be the among those who are guided to the right path. 

Have a good weekend. 

Take care.

I wonder why it is,

when life turns on you,

you go back to those places in your mind,

those places you knew,

that made you happy,

made you feel safe.

Sometimes it's the spark

of a memory,

like the places we've been,

things we've done before,

or people we knew or loved.

In the end, I think

that's what it's all about,

the people that left

a mark on you.

You want to hold on to 'em.

You want to take 'em with you,

but you can't.

When you're in trouble,

you hold on to anything

that makes you feel right again,

but it's like holding on

to water in your hands.

No matter how hard you squeeze,

it all drips away.

-- Millie, The Book of Love

Twenty-seventeen

It's the second day of the new year and here I am typing this post on my bed. I've just finished watching the movie entitled, Genius; which was remarkably a good choice of movie to watch. You'll like it if you are those people who love words and expression or to put it simply when you appreciates poetry and literature. 

I am going to turn 23 years old this year. A year older with hopes a year wiser as well. I was watching tv with dad yesterday when we saw a documentary about a guy who flew all over the world in a small aircraft and he's only 21 y/o that time. Amazing kid, really. Wondered what I did when I was 21, most probably busy looking out ways to have fun and waste time. Sigh. 

Twenty-sixteen has been a brutal year for me. I have to admit that. It has been a very exhausting year, both physically and mentally. For so many reasons I can't write here but it was only bearable with the help of God. He sent me those amazing people who supported me, without me actually realizing it while it happened. A year that tested me with patience, trust, dependence, lacking things, feeling lonely, making choices, friendship, and so many others. Probably it was the year that makes me realize what's the value of being grateful and thankful really is. Nonetheless, I did not regret any of it. It was a blessing in disguise. I got to know a lot, like a wholesome lot about myself and about those around me which I reckon would never happen if things are different. So I am quite confident to say that twenty-sixteen has been a year that both brings me tears and laughter, 366 days with so many flavors. 

Coming to twenty-seventeen, I had a chat with a colleague the other day and she asked me what is my new year resolution; which at that time I have not thought about yet. But I know now, one of it is to graduate from University of Sydney with a Bachelor Degree in Electrical Engineering. That’s one of my many resolutions, of course. There's another friend who said she just wanted to make sure that she will always pray on time and 5 times a day and night. I guess all of us has different aims right? 

I pray to God that all of us will be given blessings in our time so that we can do all the things that are beneficial and that are good for us. I pray that not a minute passed wasted with regrets. I pray that each of us, you reading this, and me, writing this, would get the best in things we do and God will always shower us His blessings and mercy and took us in His Guidance and Protection. 

Warm welcome 2017, another 364 days to be filled with scrumptious things in life! 

p/s: I only managed to read 18 books last year, hopefully, the number would be a lot more this year.

Into The Wild (2007)

Hello there.

I am browsing through my notes in my small diary to find something to talk about during Kutu Buku Sesh tomorrow and apparently I haven’t read a lot these days and I don’t really jotted down what I read so yeah. When tomorrow comes, we’ll see how it goes. On the other hand, I just realised that there are a lot of movies I’ve watched recently *don’t judged me haha* but it was worth it. Most of it taught me something, in some way, perhaps?

Into the Wild (2007)
I decided to watch this film because it is about a guy who had enough of his life and wanted to go travel in the Alaskan forest somewhere. He dumped all his worldly possession and left everything before starting his journey. There’s this part where he left his car and burn his money. Who in the world do that? Well, metaphorically, a smoker does that but that’s metaphorical. Anyway, this film is based on a true story which make it more touching and interesting.

“Watching this film gives me a sad depressing feeling, probably because he is a smart guy and he’s real. The pain that he has to go through is too much.”
That, I wrote in my notebook. Why I said the pain was too much? Watch the film, you’ll get it. Towards the end of the film, you’ll get suffocated with the details. Though, Christopher does emphasise about how he like living a life without money. It makes him less worry or something like that. I don’t really understand how he felt but assuming from what was portrayed in the film, I think he don’t get why his parents aren’t happy despite having a lot of money and being successful in life. He feels empty and that’s why he wanted to go out for a solo trip to find himself, to find something worth it.

Amazing people he met along the journey. I was truly touched with that part when he met that old man that allows him to stay at his home and let him use the laundry. How that old man don’t want to let him go to Alaska and wanting to adopt him. How he almost cried letting this young boy go. This story was real and it shows that out of sincere kindness, people can build relationships.

I also liked that fact that this guy has integrity and he likes to read. He reads a lot, like really a lot. And he wrote, which make it more thrilling to watch. It was a sad movie, be prepared mentally if you want to watch it. To end my review about this film, here’s what he wrote before the film ended,

“Happiness only real when shared.”

Film Review

Hi! Good morning guise! 

So, as my title suggest, I want to make some film reviews, well more like I want to suggest a few movies that are worth watching. I'm just going to list a few and I'll save some more for later.

1. Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (2011) 

I watched this film on Stan, which I got a free subscription after signing in for Optus. But anyway, the film is about a young kid who has lost his father and went on for a search for a meaning to a key. A key that he found in his dad's closet. This kid, Oskar, went on looking for the final message he thought his dad left him.

I'm not going to reveal any spoilers here though, so I am just going to tell you that this movie deserve to be on my recommended list. It's heartbreaking to see a young kid, seeking the meaning of life, trying to make sense things that doesn’t make sense.

I was touched watching this movie though, especially during the end of the movie, the scene between Oskar and his mum. Probably because I unconsciously put myself in her position, oh well, mum cries when kids said things like that, you know.

Anyway, if you want to enjoy this movie, try to put yourself in any of the character's shoes and you'll get what I mean, not the father though, 'cause you'll die in the first half an hour. Haha, so try Oskar or his mother. 

2. The Confirmation (2015)

About kid, Anthony, who has to stay with his alcoholic father while his mother went on holiday with her new husband. This movie is not much about the cinematography or the emotion, it seemed much more real. However, I like the scripts. There are scenes when the script lighted the light bulb in my mind, haha. For example, the scene when the father thought Anthony about the terms in carpentry.

"See that chair? Someone built that chair. It's not just one person, several people helped. Remember that. Real people. When you go over a bridge, think about what it took to build that bridge."

'Okay.'

"Ever think about the people about who made your appearance? Think about them."
However, there are some things that should not be taken into consideration from this movie. Like stealing and lying. But never mind that, there are kindness in this movie. How the guy actually walked away after looking at the life of the people who stole his stuff and he forgive them.

How both of them actually tried to go through life after one problem and one problem. How they stayed positive while life is getting difficult. Though, this movie is kind of slow but you'll like the storyline. 

3. Room (2015)

This film is about a young mother who has been living in a room for 7 years with her child, Jack, because some crazy maniac took her when she was a young girl. I gotta say, this movie is emotionally tiring. It was kind of depressing and sad movie but it worth a watch for people who needed a different perspective in life.

I've read this book long time ago and I can make sense the storyline. The pain and struggle to be stuck in a room, in a box is really real. Not that I can't imagine how she's been able to go through it. I've forgotten the scripts but I like that one scene when Jack gave his hair to his mother so that she can get stronger. How amazing a mind of young kid can be sometimes.

I just realised, of all the movies I've listed above, all of them were about a kid. Haha, I guessed I like the point of view of kid. They are so pure and honest and they has not been tainted with any ugly truth about people and life. Have a go for these movies and feel free to tell me what you think about them or even suggest me new movies to watch, haha.

Till then, have a good Sunday peeps, BYE!