How a friendship ends?

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Assalamualaikum and good morning.

How are you guys been? Good, hopefully. (:

This is my third attempt in updating the blog *yeah felt like a failure since I can’t even update my blog, the thing should be easy peasy. Hah!* Anywayyyyy, it has been 3 weeks plus minus 2 3 days since I’ve gotten back from Malaysia anddddd a lot are going on for me. Pheww. *note that while I’m typing this I am actually procrastinating on a video. Opss :o*

I’m not so sure of what to write here actually, so I’m just going with the flow. Hihi.  Aha! Got it. I’m gonna babble for a few minutes about friendship. Hiks.

Okay, so yesterday, a friend actually posted a picture on his Instagram asking what does ‘a friend’ means. Well, I am not going to answer that **sorry if you were excited for the answer to the question xp** however, something else crossed my mind.

How a friendship ends?

I’ve always wonder about this. I knew tonnes, I mean like seriously tonnes of people claiming that they’ll be friends forever but they are not talking to each other anymore. And it keeps me wondering if that is still considered being friends?

Once, a friend told me, “somebody, someone appears in your life to teach you something, and when it is done, they’ll be gone.”

Well, based in this sentence it does imply that there circumstances that two people can only know each other for a period of time. However, the phrase ‘they’ll be gone’, is that mean when they leave you to live their life without acknowledging your existence or they just died?

I personally knew a lot of people since I moved a lot, like really, I’ve got three schools in standard one, haha, which most of my friends I can’t even remember now. Sorry guys, I bet you don’t remember me as well! So the thing is, after all these years being friends with my friends, I still can’t see myself as a ‘good’ friend, it feels like something is missing. **this seems like outta context, let just ignore this**

So, there are couple of people whom I’ve known since standard six and we are still close like we used to, but there are also a few lot that don’t talk to me anymore, eh no, that I don’t talk to them anymore. Most likely because of distance but I still remember them, there’ll be no argument on this though. But I’ve noticed from time to time, those people still keep track of each other and sometimes, do say ‘hi’ to another. At least they wished each other ‘happy birthday’ and ‘selamat hari raya’.

I used to tell this friend of mine that I think I’ve lost a friend and he would say something like “I’ve never lose a friend, I always keep in touch with them”. Okay, to be honest, his response made me feel a lot more sad and feel so bad about it, but it made me thought of something as well – of how did I decided that “I’ve lost a friend”. Where’s the finishing line? Where’s the end? What’s the indicator?

And then, during Eid the other day, that friend actually texted me and asked how I’ve been doing lately. So, it has never ended. Though it feels superbly weird that we’re so so close and somehow things happened and we don’t talk often, I’ve just gotta believe that we’re still friends and it is okay to text each other from time to time. And sometimes, if we stopped talking ‘cause of a fight, throughout time, I still think that we should forgive each other and at least let go of the grudges.

So, how did friendship ends? Death? – A good friend always pray for another even after his friend’s death. Distance? – There’s a thing called sincere effort that tries to stay connected even though separated by distance. Wealth? Time? Destiny? Love? *oh, this one I don’t know, but boy-girl friendship can be quite complicated hihi* Work? Status?

Well, I don’t know really how a friendship would end. Do you?

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p/s: I’m so happy I managed to post this one.

Yeay for having yogurt for breakfast.

Personal Statement for UCAS

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Hello there,

Tonight I’m having this sudden interest in sharing my experience of making a personal statement for UCAS! Yeay. Note that to apply to universities in UK through UCAS, you’ll have to send a personal statement stating what you love, who you are, your inspiration etc. After applying, the universities would consider you, and offer you a place if they’re interested with you. Of course, they’ll looked at your results, that’s definite but a personal statement is like the only way to express yourself to the admission staff.

Well, couple of days ago, my sister are asking me whether I want to sell my A-Level books or not. Since she’s now studying in Kolej MARA Seremban (KMS), she now has a lot of friends taking A-Level hence I’m so gonna have a lot of potential buyers. So, as I was going through my pile of books in the boxes *seriously there are so many notes from A-Level, I loved them that’s why I still keep them :)* , I found my drafts for my personal statement (PS). There are exactly 5 of them. Yeah, I know right. It took me 5 times to rewrite my PS to get it right.

So, my first draft is horrible. I’ve got scribblings all over the places. Oh yeah, forgot to tell you, I’ve got this lovely Ms Tay to help me with my PS. Lucky for me, she’s a Thinking Skills lecturer. So I can really say having her as my mentor surely helped me a lot, I mean come on, ‘dissecting’ an article would be her forte. So, that is basically why I had so so many marking in my PS. Haha. Moreover, my writing skills are not that good, so she totally corrected me while making sure that the PS is still originally from me.

Anyway, the thing is to write a good PS, you have to recheck your work. You have to really make sure that your arguments are not flawed. It is normal to rewrite PS for several times. And having a good mentor or somebody to check your PS, is really important. Since PS is the only way for you to tell the universities you are applying to about how passionate you are, what you’ve achieved so far etc.

I managed to get conditional offers from Manchester, Bristol and Sheffield universities. I also managed to get an interview from Imperial College London (ICL) *which I forgot to do since I was busy settling my preparations to Sydney*. So, I think my PS is quite a success.

Anyway, it was a good experience to write a PS. Since you have to really reflect know yourself, 

know your limits, your desire and many more! Yeah, you can write crap and lies all the way just to make sure you look interesting, but to what extent can you lie to yourself? And not to forget, writing this PS helped me to realize the differences – more like potentials actually, that I have, which are not typical, making me realize how special I am.

That's all from me. If you want some help in writing a PS, I’ll be very delighted to give you some help. Just keep in touch and we’ll see how it goes.

Till then, goodnight.

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p/s : Alhamdulillah for the results (;

Film review : Frequencies

Assalamualaikum and good day mate!

So, this time around I am going to write up a movie review *haha tak pernah seumur hidup aku tulis movie review *cries** so the lucky movie is titled Frequencies.

I had to watch this movie because I thought the actor is kinda cute. Haha. Lol. *kurang pahala puasa* but anyway, this movie is basically about people with different frequencies. The idea of this movie is that people with higher frequencies tends to achieve more than those who has lower frequencies. And indirectly suggesting that the nature is in high frequencies, that is why people with high frequencies are in sync with nature and are always ‘lucky’.

Also known as OXV : The Manual

So, here, we had this cute guy called Zak, whom has a very low frequency and Marie, a girl with a very very high frequency. And that being said, in this movie it is also implied that the higher the frequency, the lower the emotional feeling. So, in this case, poor Marie, she has no idea what feelings are. And, people with very low frequency and very high frequency cannot be together. The longest time they can spend together is only 1 minute, else there’s gonna be something bad happening to Zak.

But, throughout years, Zak found out something to somehow increase his frequency and managed to get together with Marie, for a while, it worked for quite while then conflict came and things get complicated. Marie was totally confused with her feelings, is it true that she is in love with Zak or just because Zak said so? She was confused but in the end she managed to work it out.

Okay, that’s enough of a spoiler I think. Haha.

So, my comment for this movie?

Well, honestly, I think this is a non-cliché movie, the idea that you can measure someone potentials based on their frequency is very interesting. I like the idea, though it would be quite impossible to brain this haha since how on earth can you measure people’s frequencies? Or maybe there’s a way and I am very sorry for my ignorance, but I have no idea. Sorry.

Anywayyy, watching this movie made me thought of something.

*I actually spent a whole 20 minutes trying to remember what crossed my mind when I watched this movie. Haha. Aku ni dasar pelupa la! Aduhaiiii. I know it should be something deep, not something easy. But I can’t seem to remember what it is about. Ahhhh so frustrated.*

Okay then, I can’t find the words. So sorry, hihi. But do watch this movie, it is kinda slow and such but this movies is very interesting as it is very different. I got good feeling after watching this movie.

Oh wells, that’s all from me. Bye!

p/s: Planning to write a post of our roadtrip 

that we had the other day ;)
Too excited. hiks